joshua's bloggeh

2009-12-07T22:14:00.001+08:00

Joshua has been dead ever since.

2009-11-08T11:57:00.004+08:00

if you ask me, im afraid of the op. i'm afraid of the unbearable pain .

Going hiatus for a few weeks before the results are out..
Till then,
Joshua.

I dont text u that much and I dont see you as often as i’d like to, its true, but that doesn’t stop me from thinking of you. I want you to know you’re too nice to forget and i’ll always be glad that you and i met. for you are that unforgettable kind with a special place in the heart and mind..
With that said, your dearly missed..

2009-11-06T22:03:00.003+08:00

no deployment next week... D:
it should have been me spending time with her. =/

50 things that i know about Cheryl Ng.

Born in 1994 (1) , October 6th (2) , 15 this year (3) ,
loves lime green and gu jun pyo (5,6) , enjoys fried
food (7) , espically chicken (8) - chicken chop (9) ,
chicken cutlet (10) , chicken thigh (11) . can do without
the meat (12) but enjoys the skin of the fried chicken (13) .
does not like chili but if there is no other sauce,
chili will do fine (14) . loves french fries alot (15 ) . no
chili sauce in macdonalds (16) , only myonaise mixed
with curry ( stir well . ) - (17) . prefers chicken wings > burger (18)
but dont miss out on the skin portions. enjoys playing ball games (19)
espically netball (20) , basketball? (21) and badminton (22).
basically any sports.
enjoys going to movies with her loved ones (23) , and sitting down
talking and laughing over silly things (24) . likes to drink bubble tea (25).
does not like to read newspapers (26) but prefers Teenage magazines (27).
Prefers noodles>rice (28) . Ban-mian is one option (29) .
must not have vegetables in her meals , not even cucumbers (30)
no onions or beans (31) . Likes tangyuan (32) . Does not like to go home
early (33) . very focused in everything she does (34) . when she likes
something, she will like it for a long time, being very faithful (35) .
a very nice person (36) . needs at least 10hours of sleep a day (37) ,
dosent wake up once asleep until at least 8 hours (38) . does not like
going hungry (39) . Likes ghostly stuff (40) and korean dramas (41) .
ghost shows are favourites (41) . Likes to blog hop (42) .
does not like to be upset (43) , angry (44) the feeling of losing
something (45) . never make her loved one worry for you (46) and
does not like to be irritated (47). most important of all, never ever
ever betray her trust in you (48) . Smart (49) and respectable (50).

50 will do. :-)

Dear Joshua,
say all you want now, im sure you know it's virtually over. :-)

Yours Sincerely,
Joshua Yeap.
& dont worry, She Will Never Walk Alone.

2009-11-04T19:21:00.006+08:00

Take fate by its neck , or let fate take you by your neck , Joshua

DEAR Joshua ,
You once commented that she was the best girl anyone
could have.
Well, indeed she was and she also happened to be a very
patient and forgiving one.
She recognised your mistakes, a spirited loss, and she is
also able to identify a totally unforgivable mistake when you did
one.
For a start, she was always behind any thing that you did,
but for once, she had enough of your mistakes. It was you who
did not understand the significance of cherishing her.
You once said that loving her isn't a matter of life and death,
it's much more important than that.
Which is why you did so much and it hurts badly - it is the
knowledge that your love story, no matter what anyone says now,
is virtually over.
I sincerely wish to see you being hammered by the final nail to put
you in your coffin and send all your hopes and dreams crashing.

DEAR Joshua,
You said that you would never leave her nor forsake her.
Yet you forsaked her.
Where were you when she needed you most? Where were
you when she longed for you most? This is a question only you
can answer.
If you are telling us that you wish to love her forever, well,
let me remind you that this is the Earth, this is where there
are many girls out there.
It is safe to say that your ancestors will all rise from their
graves in anger should you ever disappoint them again.
The final straw was not when you waited for her outside
the school for hours - despite being patient - but when your
shout embarrassed everyone when there was still hope that
she will still love you.
It shows how much you wanted her back. Other boys would
have waited patiently, and wait for her response. Yet you took
things in your own hands.
Are you telling everyone that you have no options left?
Well, who was the one who made her angry and upset
for no apparent reason?
Who was the one who was with her whenever she was down?
I'm horrified, this is a complete travesty that can only
be resolved by two methods.
1) You take fate by its neck
2) You let fake take you by your neck

Yours sincerely
Joshua Yeap
She will never walk alone.

2009-11-04T03:20:00.003+08:00

because i didnt do what you feared i would do,
and what you always feared all along :-)
after all 3>2.

thanks brothers, friends :-)

and for those who told me don't bother trying that
day, i wont blame you if you decide to tell me,
'' See, i told you so . '' now . thanks. :-)

so said the person who said... :-)

2009-11-03T21:19:00.001+08:00

He takes you out and he takes you up,
cause he can show you so much.

I go to bed and tomorrow again,
there's alot of work to be done.

He gives you gold and he'll promise you,
the whole World will be yours.

I just can tell you i love you so,
even though my odds are low.

I'm not an actor, I'm not a star.
And i don't even have my own car.
But i'm hoping so much you'll stay.
That you will love me anyway.

The dirty games and the neon shows.
This is the world he knows.

Watching the stars satisfies my soul,
thinking of him makes me feel so cold.

The fancy cars and the restaurants,
you're just so fond of the man.

Sometimes i wonder if you are blind,
cant you see? he's got dirt on his mind..

I'm not an actor, I'm not a star.
And i don't even have my own car.
But i'm hoping so much you'll stay.
That you will love me anyway.

2009-11-02T22:22:00.004+08:00

well, that's that .. i 've tried ...

i just don't know what to say now ...

now, i hope you know why i didnt like
you messaging him at all...
why i got angry over it so easily...
i always feared it... really i did..
why do this to me ?

i never ever agreed to a break up...

it's come back, to be the truth now...

if fate brings us back again someday , i hope
that you will remember how much i loved you.

2009-10-30T21:51:00.005+08:00

one meal a day is just enough for me now .
dont really have appetite..

i just hope, she will read what i made..
it took me 6days to finish it...
i wont complain about anything,
but it was really a hard job.
im glad i finishing it (:

work, very bad. no mood to work.
the reason why i found a job was for her..
i promised her good good food.
and i wanted to spend every single cent on her.. D:

tomorrow halloween.
there was something de, but she wont go with me le..
she likes ghost ghost stuff. :X

over work.. got women's roadshow.
then got song come out,
''nobody nobody but you ! '' then my heart hor,
very .... now i at home, my sister down here
''nobody nobody but you ! '' also...

reminds me of how bad i was. i was a scumbag.

my elephant memory reminds me..
6.30 1st thunder.
7.15 heavy rain + thunder ( lighting was in
front of my shop i could see it totally !! )
7.25 heavy rain + thunder !
first thing on my mind: is she caught in the rain?
is she home already?
i didnt dare to text her...

just hope one day.. just one day...

N - level results out soon,
will she be there to support me? D:

"Rejected, stand up again", a phrase given to me that I'll never forget. So I'll remain standing even when the earth and heavens falls.

The Word Game
No<1> matter<2>how<3> my<4>
heart<5>breaks,<6> ____<7> Yeap<8>
____<9> still<10> love<11> ____<12>
____<13>____<14> ____<15> only, <16>
forever!!<17>

( finishing soon ! )

2009-10-29T22:23:00.003+08:00

there used to be one person, the only one,
the 'special' one who would come over to my blog..
now no one will come .. so it's okay for me to say things here.

even she gave up hope in me..
then i must be really h0p3l3s5.
what's the point of carrying on with life?
it's as though as i'm being forced to live...
she was with me, everywhere i went..
no matter what i did, what wrong i did..
she will always forgive me..
now that even she has given up on me,
i really dont know... what to do...
it was me who let her down.
i'm just really lost...

i had no mood to serve any customers today.
i kept making mistakes while talking to them. -.-

over at work today...
Boss : how is your sales so far?
my reply : none . ( cause my mood is so bad ..
i was depressed all the way. )
Boss : do something !
my reply : zzzzzzzzz ( i am really lost .. i dont
know what to do. thoughts keep coming to my
mind. )

i kept looking out of the shop,
cause i thought i might just see you...

''rejected, stand up again!'' she once told me.

now even she has given up hope on me....

only i myself know what i myself am thinking now.

but i still hope to complete this.

The Word Game
No<1> matter<2>how<3> my<4>
heart<5>breaks,<6> ____<7> ____ <8>
____<9> still<10> love<11> ____<12>
____<13>____<14> ____<15> only, <16>
forever!!<17>

2009-10-29T12:16:00.002+08:00

no lunch for me today.
woke up today, had to rush my assignment
for someone special..
have to be at work by 1pm !!

"Rejected, stand up again", a phrase given to me that I'll never forget. So I'll remain standing even when the earth and heavens falls.

The Word Game
No<1> matter<2>how<3> my<4>
____<5>breaks,<6> ____<7> ____ <8>
____<9> still<10> love<11> ____<12>
____<13>____<14> ____<15> only, <16>
forever!!<17>

2009-10-28T23:53:00.001+08:00

I hear the ticking of the clock, I'm lying here the room's pitch dark .
I wonder where you are tonight, no answer on the telephone.

The Word Game
____<1> matter<2>how<3> my<4>
____<5>breaks,<6> ____<7> ____ <8>
____<9> still<10> love<11> ____<12>
____<13>____<14> ____<15> only, <16>
forever!!<17>

2009-10-28T10:25:00.000+08:00

Cheryl, i've let you down.

The Word Game
____<1> matter<2> ____<3> my<4>
____<5>breaks,<6> ____<7> ____ <8>
____<9> still<10> love<11> ____<12>
____<13>____<14> ____<15> only, <16>
forever!!<17>

2009-10-27T11:04:00.002+08:00

does she still care for me ?

what i am left behind, is even more painful...

it's raining now.. very heavily..
thunder... lightning..
i really hope she does not get caught in the rain.

i want to bring her umbrellas, but i know
she does not want to see me...

no matter what she says...
jywc still loves cnlj...

i have only myself to blame as it turned out
to be such an ending.

once a hope , now a goner.

The Word Game
____<1> matter<2> ____<3> ____<4>
____<5>breaks,<6> ____<7> ____ <8>
____<9> still<10> loves<11> ____<12>
____<13>____<14> ____<15> only, <16>
forever!!<17>

2009-10-26T22:34:00.003+08:00

i've lost someone whom i can never replace...

work was bad enough today, very hard to focus
for long hours.. no sales today... though i made
5 iphone sales.. but no commission ..

saw many couples along toa payoh so sweet...
and i come back to think about myself.

why wasnt i that understanding.
i said i loved her, i would give her the best i could,
why didnt i do so.
why did i wait for her to go before i start to realise
how much i loved her...

everytime we quarreled, it would always be her
to give in to me... no matter what...

now, the tables have turned on me....
i've let her down.
i've let everyone down..
no matter how much i say, cannot prove my innocence.
i must have been condemned badly....

the more i let her down, the more i should wait,
no matter how harsh it is on me, i should not complain.

i am aware of what is happening around me...
but i'm just keeping quiet...
i can't even say anything now...

she cherished me ... it was me who did not ...

i'm really sorry.

The Word Game
____<1> matter<2> ____<3> ____<4>
____<5>breaks,<6> ____<7> ____ <8>
____<9> still<10> ____<11> ____<12>
____<13>____<14> ____<15> only, <16>
forever!!<17>

2009-10-26T09:15:00.003+08:00

hope for the best, and prepare for the worst.
whether i need the op will be revealed soon.
praying hard enough to the Lord, hope he has
his mercy on me..
give me enough strength to carry me through.

i still have many unfulfilled promises,
the promises made.... this will make me even
have more determination to fight the op.

i see that i must change everything in me.
especially my bad temper which has been
bothering me for quite long time...

it's been long since i was last happy. D:

The Word Game
____<1> matter<2> ____<3> ____<4>
____<5>breaks,<6> ____<7> ____ <8>
____<9> ____<10> ____<11> ____<12>
____<13>____<14> ____<15> only, <16>
forever!!<17>

2009-10-25T22:25:00.006+08:00

it pains me.

nothing can help change my mood.
my mood is always bad now..
used to say playing fifa will help..
but nothing can help now..

to all my fifa friends:
i'm quitting, never coming back.

always getting scolded.
am i that useless?

i dont want anything now..
i cant hope for more now...

i just hope.. one day...

i will have the chance to wipe off your tears when you
are down...
smile at you when you are sad...
laugh with you when you are happy.

i can only say i love you so,
even though my odds are low.

no matter what, i will still love you wholeheartedly forever.
because my love for you has no expiry date.

The Word Game
____<1> matter<2> ____<3> ____<4>
____<5>____,<6> ____<7> ____ <8>
____<9> ____<10> ____<11> ____<12>
____<13>____<14> ____<15> only, <16>
forever!!<17>

2009-10-24T09:33:00.005+08:00

work was tiring !!!!

there is supposed to be more to say,
there are more reasons, why i should not let you go!
every message that comes in, i keep thinking it will be you!!
when it's not, i have the unbearable kind of feeling..

The Word Game
____<1> ____<2> ____<3> ____<4>
____<5>____,<6> ____<7> ____ <8>
____<9> ____<10> ____<11> ____<12>
____<13>____<14> ____<15> only, <16>
forever!!<17>

2009-10-23T10:06:00.014+08:00

i should not have left you at the table the other day,
and went to talk to the other girls..
i didnt have a chance to say sorry.
it will not help, but sorry.
please do not avoid me )':
i want to text you, but i'm afraid you will angry/sad..

i blame myself. from a host of chances to zero.
and i became from hero to zero, to becoming
a villain.

starting work today, at orchard ion !!!
i know where i will be deployed when i start
working officially, but i cannot say...
it was meant to be a happy news..
now , i dont think i should say...

maybe she wants me to learn the virtue
of patience. (:
if only i had taken this approach right from
the start...

The Word Game
____<1> ____<2> ____<3> ____<4>
____<5>____,<6> ____<7> ____ <8>
____<9> ____<10> ____<11> ____<12>
____<13>____<14> ____<15> only, <16>
____<17>

The Love Texts
03/03/2008 11:24:21pm
Cheryl lingling says: '' i will not do anything for you, i will
do everything for you'' ;D
ILOVEYOU!MUACKS! {333
you'll never know how much i love you (:

04/03/2008 09:43:52am
english: i love you
polish : ja kocham cibie
french : je t'aime
hindi : hum tunhe pya karte hae
czech : miluji te
slovakian : lu 'bim ta
italian : ti amo
ukrainian : ya yebe kahayu
german : ish libe dish
chinese : ww0aiinnii ( so special for me )
greek : s'gapo
hawaian : aloha wau ia oi
lithuianian : tav myliu
korean : sarang hae
japanese : aishiteru
romanian : te ubsec
bosnian : volim te
albanian : te dua
filipino : mahal kita
spanish : te amo
portugese : amo te
arabian : annah be hdbic

i got this because it means i am truly loved.

20/03/2008 10:09:38pm
You are the reason i go on. Eternity can't seperate this special bond.
This heart of mine is reserved for you. Forever it is yours, the love is true.
I'll be your first and you'll be my last. My world my everything till my time
has past. I will always love you till the end of time. My love my sweetheart
my darling. <3 cheryl ng li jia ba0xbEiix la0po. Muacks darling.
My promise to you : love you forever , together forever, closer to you.
Muacks darling <3

i should have cherished it more !!

2009-10-21T19:14:00.003+08:00

how long more can my body last? i asked myself.
how many more blows can i take? i asked myself.
why am i always on the shorter end of the stick,
always losing out to someone else? i asked myself.
just what wrong did i do to deserve all these? i asked myself.

yes, i do feel inferior to him now, and really threatened,
because whatever i say about him, you are always shielding him.
i did suggest to you that i would be fine with gradually cutting down
on You Know What , but you rejected. that made me feel even more
You Know What.

it's not that i do not trust you, i really feel threatened now.

one can take setbacks. but perhaps, perhaps not that many on
the trot. i have failed 9 times and counting, over the past 9 days.
part and parcel of life? sure it is, but to this extent?

each new day, i tried something new. ways to try to win you back.
i thought you were hinting me on things. perhaps, i expected too much.
i remember the first time i tried, i failed. the pain wasnt so much...

failed failed failed. on the 8th time, failed. this, for the 1st time, i cried.
a big boy like me crying over you. i didnt cry that much in the past before.
not even when miss ma said i would fail my maths and i would end up
in ITE if it carried on. no.

i called you immediately, and tried to change to situation.
i even penned down what i must do to really change.
being in my situation, like i mentioned earlier on, one wouldnt say
they would not be threatened. rather, i must say that that is the kind
of feeling each and every one of us will have. this reason could be due
to jealousy, and not because of the lack of trust between two.

that was when you gave me a glimpse of hope. you said you would
consider again. and you would tell me the answer today.
my hopes were short-lived. i could predict your answer right from
the start, the sloppy replies, but i persevered, i told myself that i must
not let you slip away from me. and i did just that. i didn't think i did
anything wrong today. i thought that it was the best i have ever ever
of my 16years of youth. you can say that i was too naive, thinking
that 2222hrs will have the magic. or maybe, i was rather confident
that you would come back to me. So, i text you, '' Honestly, do
i still stand a chance?'' . your answer was a straight ''No.''
initially, i thought you were just joking with me, i thought you wanted
to say, '' No, you do not stand a chance, you have many chances.''.
Yes, do not laugh at me, because i really thought of that, although
i didnt want to think of the real outcome.
my worst fears came true, when the same message came to me.
''No.'' at this time, my mind went pin-blank. the pieces of my heart
shattered the way it has never been shattered before. i didnt know
what to do. i had the thoughts of ______ .

i really have to thank minfeng for cheering me up. thanks alot.
and yes. the first time i cried so badly, that i was sobbing like
i dont know what when i called minfeng. yes. you heard me saying.
Joshua crying. how many times do you see me crying. the aggressive
me crying. yes, and i did say that....
thank you minfeng, so much.

i know i have done my best over the past 9 days. my chin is up, my
head is held up high. perhaps i should have known the pain would
have accumulated had i been rejected over and over again...
however, i refused to let it go, and tried, tried, tried. stupid me, stupid.

did i really lose out to him? did i only achieve the shorter end of the stick?
this remains highly debatable.

you said you are tired. you are unable to trust me. when i asked you, you
said you do not trust me too.
is our relationship really that feeble? that feeble like how defences are sliced?
i'm sure being together for so long, the trust will not be so little.

i really don't know what to do now. gain sympathy? no.

or i should say, what i am left with. the memories...

started out being just ''daughter'', then ''brother-sister'' and
it evolved to what we were today. yes.
first kiss at the library.
held hands for the first time over the zebra crossing.
visited lan shop together after exams.
bought you first ring just 4days with you, your birthday.
first hug.
first everything.
106 hearts.
first stitch toy.
first photo taken which is in my wallet.
first time i sent you home.
first time i treated you.
first time i fed you vice versa.
first time at the theatres.
first time i wrote a letter to you ( first time i actually i drew
on it, which was 4 pages long )
second soft toy - angel .
photos of you holding angel. i have them.
there are definitely many more...
Baby J most recently...

not to forget, the ups i have mentioned. the downs..
first quarrel - over lack of time together.
first time wanted to break - my fault.
the first time i walked out on you ( although i did come back for you ) .
first time i used the F word on you.
first time i scolded you.
first time i doubted you.

What we overcame together

first time quarrel and wanted to break- we got back together.
second time- over the lack of time spent together.
cross country - i thank mei yan for helping me.
few occasions before 2 years,
and just on 2years.
the time we were caught ( this really made me love you even more ) .

we have come so far, gone through so many things together.
i do not deny the fact that i have always loved you. unless it is really
that feeble, i doubt this would have been the outcome...

silly me. to lick my own wounds now, i only have myself, and only
myself to blame.

but, i still love you. maybe, maybe that is just the power of love.
love is a strong word, something powerful, that can change a person's
life or have an impact on one.

perhaps, i may just be an irritant to you now. perhaps, perhaps one fine
day, you will realise how much, just how much i really loved you,
and how much i really tried and tried, the pain i felt being rejected
over and over again... but that may just be too late for me.

sure, i do think someone like you deserves someone better, although
i always thought that only i, and only me should have you. yes. only you.

i would like to embrace you again in my arms, hold you like i never did
before. shower all my love for you, even more than before.

they say, without break-ups, the bond will not strengthen.
somehow, i feel otherwise, because you have never been that serious
in your speeches, the sloppiness.

like you said, if it comes back, it is yours. if it dosent, it never was.
i do get the feeling of deja vu.

it's time. time to hate myself like i never hated anyone before.

2009-10-21T10:10:00.001+08:00

doom or boom tonight.

2009-10-20T21:57:00.000+08:00

left for the dead and to lick my own wound.

2009-10-19T13:23:00.001+08:00

All the things we went through together I'm gonna miss.
You left me without even a goodbye kiss.

That was the start of my downfall.
I would not even wan to kick a ball.

Languishing lowly without a place.
Having lost a girl that i cannot replace.

How am i going to revive the happy days?
Not before i return to happy ways.

Now it's gonna end in tears.

2009-10-19T11:06:00.003+08:00

dosent come back - never was mine ?

well.

no more energy to keep on trying.

you never seem wanting to talk to me
no matter how hard i try.

2009-10-18T15:11:00.002+08:00

i tried to sleep at 2pm. and i barely slept for 1hour.
well, there is a limit to how much blows a person can take.
sooner or later, at this rate, i should be sent to IMH.

wednesday-tried.
thursday-tried.
friday-tried.
saturday-tried.
sunday-tried.

100% record of being rejected.

i am getting very easily pissed now,
and am sure will scream over the smallest things.

i have a choice to make. do or die, i wont ask why.
given a choice, i would rather choose to die, than to
feel all the pain going through me.

2009-10-18T11:56:00.001+08:00

why are you making sport of me ?
you were not like this before.

i seriously dont even know what happened.

lol, fail. my knuckles are so painful that i find
it hard to type, let alone play games. nvm.

bye , tyvm.

2009-10-18T01:17:00.002+08:00

fuck the online tournament of laggers, delay, spikes.
i fuck them all.

preliminary round only i out already.
fuck. blame the draw, because i only got sweden.
all run so fucking slow.

group stage. bloody hell.
make me so damn pissed.
vs this dont know which ctry group stage match day 1
losing 1-3 ( two of the goals were because i was trying
to clear the ball in the box, but due to delay he got it
and he scored , fuck . ) , came back 3-3
and lost to a 90min goal. i turn wrong side,
then delay cannot chase back . stupid right.

2nd game. kana lan also. lost 3-5.
not delay not lag. spike. play then hang 1sec then hang 1sec.
it's sickening. side dribble and one of the goal was i trying to clear
then delay cannot clear.
fuck.

its unusual that i get knocked out even before i reach
the group stages. i fuck this online tournament stuff.
my chance to win $200 just flew like this.

left one more match- dont even need to play.
i think i will just give my opponent 10 goals since he is
my friend.

2009-10-18T00:12:00.000+08:00

i remember my promises. do you ?

2009-10-17T08:31:00.001+08:00

happy deepavali to all.
today is a long day for me.
visiting kasthuri's house,
then heading to kallang the cage for 4hours.
180$ omg. lol.....

by the time i come back , sleep.

2009-10-16T16:37:00.001+08:00

if a person can be at two places at one time, i'll be with you.
tomorrow and today, beside you all the way.

2009-10-15T20:18:00.002+08:00

021007, i got to know someone who has touched my life ever since.
so many things have happened and i can say that we have bonded well in a way or another.

You were literally feeling so low, and i went through it all with you and brought u out of that misery..
Life moved on slowly and things started to get better slowly..

That's when trouble hit me. There was this day at Dhoby Ghaut, on my birthday, despite me losing
at the tournament, you touched me so much..
Slowly since that day, feelings changed and developed.

Confessions were made, things were made known.
Up in the mountains, beneath the moon and stars.
I had meant everything i said that's for sure..

i already know the answer.

It’s the one person in the world that knows you better than anyone else. It’s someone who makes you a better person. Well, actually they don’t make you a better person. You do that yourself, because they inspire you. It’s the one person who knew you, and accepted you, and believed in you before anyone else did or when no one else would. And no matter what happens, they will always be there for you, and like you for everything you are.

2009-10-14T16:03:00.001+08:00

''nothing (: msg you later,studying'' and
'' no i'm not,lol.'' were the last two
phrases i heard from you.

2009-10-13T22:17:00.002+08:00

long long day today for me.
my rise and shine was at 7am today.
packed my things, and met ken lim
in front of may flower sec school bus stop
and we headed to kallang the cage to play football.
bad thing was we had to wait 45mins for clarence
at kallang mrt.

over at the cage, me , being first time there, had
to get used to the short length of the pitch and
the skills there.
i did score a few goals today, all with my right foot.
most of them were long range.
the highlight of today was, goalkeeper clarence threw
a ball straight and me, was just in front of goal,
controlled it, and slotted it past the goal keeper.
/heh
i can play in the cage too.

headed to kallang leisure park for lunch.
chicken rice man. okayokay only. wanted yoguru,
but my friends didnt like them.

well. visited grandma. and wow, the dinner she
prepared was awesome.

left for home.
reached ang mo kio and guess who i saw?
i saw qimei . lolol.. i was thinking of something
when i heard a voice, 'joshua!' .
oh i turned around and saw her.
chatted a few lines.... and off we went.

home now. dead beat.
because of the stupid renovation of my house,
i have to be outside the house for whole day
for 2 weeks. and come back must help to
keep clean the house. this sucks.
im still thinking where to camp tomorrow morning.

2009-10-12T19:34:00.001+08:00

lolyou whats your prob.

2009-10-09T21:21:00.000+08:00

Group A - Loti (Bayer Leverkusen)
Angelittle (werder bremen)
Uchitoru (turkey)
Chikchik (Man United)

Group B - Cescnorman (Portugal)
Jankampeng (Chelsea)
Tenken (Croatia)
Mastagee (Netherlands)

Group C - Saddyx (Valencia)
Reversed (Republic Czech)
Kenzo (Juventus)
SteveCoppel (England)

Group D - Joybaby (Inter)
Gempark (Vilareal)
Lilioplata (Russia)
Swoops (Barca)

Group E - Skyinho (Tottenham Spurs)
Strike (Fenerbache)
Crossfire (Lyons)
Gomugomuno (schalke 04)

Group F - zzsleepzz (AC MIlan)
zaki (sweden)
linus (porto)
haahaahaa (olympique marseille)

Group G - Draco (Italy)
Theonez (Real Madrid)
Ahwah (Roma)
Value (Liverpool)

Group H - Ryanleo (FCGB)
Nasilem (Everton)
Boluck (Sevilla)
JamieYeo (Brazil)

Group I - Ning (Mexico)
Avrillavigne (Man City)
KLcker (Argentina)
Laguna (Germany)

Group J - Racerfx (Bayern Munich)
Jeffchew (Arsenal)
Xephyre (Aston Villa)
Didierdeschampss (Benfica)

and what ? i got sweeden.
top 2 qualify from each group and
the last 8 from previous cup will join us
to make it another group of 32 .

last 16 format home and away.
away goals count. how to win with sweeden!!

1st place - 200
2nd - 100
3rd - 60 .
I WANT TO WIN

2009-10-07T21:51:00.001+08:00

werder bremen vs real madrid

fifa online 2 tournament last 16 1st leg.

i was using werder and i got crushed 1-7.

fuck. bremen players all super slow.

i struck the post left right
and headed just over 3 times from set pieces.

and the robben higuain huntelaar all run so fast
from there defence of my opponent one through ball
i die alr.
happened so many times. fk la fk la.
2nd leg also no moood alr.

2009-10-05T06:32:00.001+08:00

world math day's never-say-die attitude.
i can do it !
COME ON !!!!!!

2009-10-04T23:46:00.001+08:00

though it's gonna hurt us both,
there's no other way,
but to say goodbye.

that was what i said.

is it too late? perhaps.

2009-10-03T09:39:00.003+08:00

i lol'ed at the way my young night was ruined yesterday.
no thanks to ________ ( whatever . )

no normal girl will send text messages to girls for long.
no normal boy will send text messages to boys for long.

based on this statement, i can already have a rough gauge
of how long it has been going on.

i told you countless times that i don't like.
of all the people you message, why must it be him?

ironically, i remember myself telling you over and over again.
and it seems we quarrel over the same reasons.

sorry if my words hurt any fragile souls over here.
it's how i feel and i have to articulate myself, if not express.

when it's time to let go, it's time.
i don't wish to say the same thing over and over again.

tell me you are just friends.
but does he think the same way as you? please.

you told me you hoped nothing will go wrong.
what went wrong then? ( i believe you know)

anyway, you take your time and decide yourself.
i have made up my mind already, but i want to hear your views.

2009-09-23T15:54:00.001+08:00

noodles cooked will be left uneaten. :D

2009-09-22T23:19:00.002+08:00

ill be moving over to malaysia soon, that's bad news.
i don't have any reason to be angry.

my match with sousuke was re-video-ed and
although i lost 6-7 ( there was a bug right at the end
of extra time <> ; which caused me to lose =x
because a penalty meant a 50% chance of equalising )
i hope it will be uploaded by tonight, so i will be able
to put the video tomorrow. ha ha .

2009-09-21T23:44:00.001+08:00

my fifa online match with sousuke.
For your info, i was the one is white.
i thought i led the game for so long, but i lost three
goals in the last 10mins. perhaps, my lapse of concentration.
but it was a good game; well played.
enjoy.

2009-09-21T22:53:00.002+08:00

many things i want to express.
ill start with ytd.

hmm. went to malaysia on my own. the trip took me around
3hours ++ to reach my malaysia home. -.- i had to wait for
bus service no 170 for almost 40minutes !!! and then i stood
in the bus for around 40mins too for the stretch from sg
to malaysia, heavy traffic flow.

reached home in malaysia, ate my lunch, slept, all the way
to 7.15 pm :D then ate dinner, went to sleep again
till 9pm.. mom's sister ( my aunt came ) , talk talk chat chat,
went back to sleep at 11pm. charged my phone, just nice
1am dad call, ask want supper or not, i said no, everyone
slept already. just nice i received message, just nice my hp
just charge finish. great. slept peacefully last night.

then today morning. forced to wake up. have to travel
over 100km + just for seafood.
way there > heavy traffic flow. lol'ed.
ate king lobster there, fried crabs. i have to say that the
food cooked this time round ( my 2nd time there ) was not
very impressive, and my table alone chalked up a hefty amount
of 430 RM. there were 5 tables in total. i can imagine how much
the restaurant is earning. went to desaru for some drinks.
lol'ed. why go all the way there just to drink @@.
left there at 4pm, HEAVY TRAFFIC AGAIN. this time, my mom
drived. lol'ed... my dad kept reprimanding her, ask her to cut
the white line in a one lane , cos heavy traffic, many cars kept
overtaking. 7pm reached home, bath la. didnt visit crocodile farm.
and yes, i was so cold for 3hours in the car. lol'ed it was raining
heavily too! and yes, dinner was something different tonight.
Pizza in the car on the way to Singapore ! wow .
and yes, there was no traffic jam in the customs of both
Malaysia and Singapore tonight. great. reached home at around 8.30pm
today. so cool right. 1st time so early.
watched the replay of ManU vs ManC which manu won 4-3.

yes.
rating for seafood: 5/10.
D: parents say 2nd time and last time.
not impressive food cooked this time, and waste of time cos
of the heavy jam and delay. well, it sounds like good news to me.

NOT GOING TO MALAYSIA NEXT WEEKEND !!
WANNA GO DOWN CITY HALL ?? WATCH FORMULA ONE at
a free angle =x and listen to the engine sounds. :DD

2009-09-18T22:32:00.002+08:00

my friend clarence knocked out xtreme ( top fifa player in sg )
by winning 3-2 in the first leg, and holding him 0-0 in the 2nd leg.
but why was it so cruel to him to let him lose in the finals?
losing 0-5, he came back 4-5 and almost scored before
succumbing to a 4-6 defeat right at the death.
i could see the lag and shaky game play.
had he won, i would have been given a razer keyboard. D:
or even some share of the $1666 for the winning prize.
lol'ed. wake of the defeat, i dont think he will share.

now on my wantlist is a razer keyboard. its meant for games.
hmmm. the one i want costs $100. the silver one costs $50
but has less functions. hmm, i believe i can save up.

2009-09-17T18:54:00.003+08:00

PRs cant take part in fifa online 's Starhub Cup hosted by IAHgames.
and that sucks, because i would have had a go on the prize money.

2009-09-15T22:06:00.001+08:00

when i spoke the truth about your friend, so said you who asked me what he has done to me. because it's you now, to be in the same scenario, you too do think that its nothing wrong. fine. if playing music during You Know What lesson is deemed as 'quiet' , then i would like to ask if you know what hypocrisy is. If you say it's cause of us you're rushing your works, let me clarify : my class does not owe your class a living. you do your work or not is none of my/our business. it's your result after all, and i/we don't give two hoots.

2009-09-13T22:36:00.001+08:00

back from malaysia . LOL .
had food frenzy in malaysia . lol ...
yesterday night had steamboat, today morning roti prata,
KFC was lunch, and noodles with fried fishcake for dinner. lololol...
this suggests the reason which may make me fatter.

after 2 weeks of not going there,
i had to show at least some commitment to go there .
even though i detest doing so .
hmmm... slept in air-con room at 21deg ( so cold @@ )
for hours, and caught a flu. lol.

ah yes, barichello won the italian GP, followed by Jenson Button
and Kimi .

oh no, my internet speed downgrade to a free , better operator
but slower speed.......................
dots........ so slow. 2mbps... -.-
how to play games now ?? jialat....
damn , when i have the money to buy my own laptop, i will buy
my own wireless and pay for it every month.
and im enabled to use everywhere.. -.-

2009-09-12T13:14:00.001+08:00

you are so damn irritating.
okaythanksbye.

tuition. hmmm going to be boring, yet again...
bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb.

2009-09-12T00:58:00.000+08:00

please let it be
Roger Federer vs Rafael Nadal US Open 2009 Final.
it will be an epic finale.

2009-09-09T21:41:00.000+08:00

we keep the red flags flying high, cause Manchester United will never die.

2009-09-06T10:01:00.001+08:00

I LOST 500k+530k IN FIFA .
THAT IS EQUAL TO 1.03MILLION .
THAT IS LIKE SO MUCH OF MY TIME TO EARN......
THAT IS, I CAN SAY 70HOURS OF CONSTANT GAMING.

oh well, woke up today, watched US OPEN.
ANDY RODDICK IS OUT !
his serves very powerful, but he got knocked out
by a US wildcard. aiyooooo...

2009-09-03T14:30:00.000+08:00

down with a 38.7 deg fever desu .

2009-09-01T22:34:00.000+08:00

i didnt do well for my prelims and i know it .
had my hair cut today . hmmm . want to ask back money
and i doubt i dont think i can get i back .

2009-09-01T09:29:00.001+08:00

had a good sleep last night .
this morning woke up, lost 200k in fifa @@
sent in a ticket already.

2009-08-31T17:33:00.000+08:00

met up with Nicholas , Dennis , Choon Ting , Zoe and Zeng Jie
today. WOW. everyone has changed so much.
but noticeably, i guess everyone thought i've grown fatter,
which i actually did.
went to watch 'Proposal' with them, and wow. the show very...
er... lol.. many 'arousing' parts , i'm not referring to myself,
and er. ya. bid our farewells after that. and yes, back home.

today , deja vu . the same way i felt exactly last year .
hmm.. i decline to comment any further.
just that last year was agressive,
this year i didnt give two hoots. (:

just so many things happened today, and i don't think i wish
to think about it. not only this, but that, those, and lots.
i don't need any sympathy or any apologies.

It's nothing wrong to like someone or to look at her .
I mean, if you are attracted to someone, what can you do?
attracted is one thing. the others, another.
they are totally different.

2009-08-30T23:16:00.000+08:00

ManUnited ends Arsenal run of leading at half-time and
not losing of 69matches.
Arsenal played good football, led towards the end of first
half.
but it was United, who came back in the 2nd .
Rooney put away to bed a penalty,
before Abu Diaby put the ball in the back of his own net
following a Ryan Giggs cross. the defender was under
no pressure at all. he looked at the goal, and the
ball went into it.
i was laughing the hell out of myself. so tyco.
ha ha ha .

Eboue DIVER !! join your national team swimming la .

but what a goal from Arshavin.
even a manu fan nothing to say.
his body language is very hard to predict.
first the throw in comes. he picks up the pass,
with his head looming down, he strikes the ball so hard
straight at Foster, and he could only parry it to the
top left hand corner of the net. what a moment.

2009-08-29T09:27:00.000+08:00

first clash of the big four .

Manchester United vs Arsenal this weekend.

i will watch it in malaysia.
yes, may manu win.
win big. big big. very big. big margin.
by 3 goals. by 4 goals.

2009-08-25T22:42:00.000+08:00

Joshua might not be turning in tonight !
Joshua has to study for his maths paper !
Joshua hopes by doing so, he will not fall asleep during
Maths Prelim tomorrow.
Joshua hopes that he will catch some sleep at least.
Joshua loves Cheryl Ng !!

2009-08-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

thanks dear for everything.
today particularly in good mood !!

i saw something which i shouldnt have saw today, in school desu.
and what i have said were what i saw, the truths.
oh ya.
I extend my apologies if I've shattered any fragile souls with my tone and/or language. I'm not used to sugarcoating my words and it will take some time for me to buck up on this skill.

Good Night.

2009-08-17T22:09:00.001+08:00

is there life after being a chong boon reject ?

2009-08-14T23:02:00.001+08:00

yes ! i tio kaka . (:

2009-08-13T22:10:00.000+08:00

Dude , take your romance practice elsewhere .
Doing it everywhere is unhygienic .

2009-08-11T22:44:00.002+08:00

originally quoted from LehBra .
directing to ______ ( you know who )

the school's walls have eyes..
It's your stupidity that's hilarious, not the person
itself. The Person should just shoot himself in the
head because the value of its life is worthless.
Although technically, you can argue that your
stupidity is part of you, but meh.

its just hilarious that you were caught and you
did it again, this time in the restroom of the opposite
sex.
like i said, the walls have eyes ya?

i will not comment further about this. (:
but trust me, it will catch up on you. it always does.
glad to be of service to you.

2009-08-10T03:47:00.000+08:00

selling off my fifa online 2 acct .
ign zhun . interested parties can contact me. thanks.

i doubt im sleeping tonight !

2009-07-27T21:55:00.000+08:00

oki dokey. im trying my best not to get irritated. hmm,
you know recalling things make you irritated, ya?

today, vincent and i went to tan kai hua's house.
yes, to cie cuo cie cuo ( interact ? )
what i meant was sparring PES2009 ( pro evolution soccer )

i have to say that kai hua ia a master in PES2009.
i won him i think 5-0 because i had all my players condition up
and his was the worst condition. that was the best part. hahaha.

he requested for rematch, then this time forget to change his
conditions ( so still worst ) then losing to me 2-0 say cannot la,
restart. WTF, sore loser rite !!

this time we played a real match. and i was totally outclassed
in every department. i am not a player you see. like i said, come
to fifa online 2 for 2nd leg and ill crush you. ^^

then we played racing games.
i played with vincent.
i duno how the heck to accelerate the car
and i kept banging into the thing... obviously i lost...

i enjoyed myself in the fighting game though.
the theme was 'anyhowplay' .
i anyhow hit also can win, but of cos i lost too.
i think i know why i won. because i was irritated my character
got hit, and i was like .. '' oh **** you hit me '' and i punched
and kicked and whatever, kept spamming the attack button, and i won.
i lost too, so many combo(s), cheater kai hua.

ended the house visit of kai hua with 2 games of PES.
Netherlands vs Spain. who will win?

my thumb was so pain ( i was not used to using controller )
and i thought i was at a disadvantage la!!
kai hua won me 4-0 in the first leg, and i have to say , i gave
away the ball too easily.
i requested for rematch, and yes, this time i took the game to the
master, grinding out a 2-1 result. leading 2-0, kaihua's winger
surged down the left wing, and made a perfect cross.
just as i thought oh yes, casillas surely get the ball, his striker
headed the ball in. WTF. angry liao.

and yes, it was really fun at kai hua's place. :D
will go there again, soon.

2009-07-23T23:05:00.002+08:00

you bet i knew what i was talking.

2009-07-21T18:09:00.002+08:00

saturday's last 16 lan battle was at e2max. i was struggling to make past the last 16, because i was trailing to a goal after my slip-up, allowing my opponent to score in his first attack, at 3mins. hmm, i huffed and puffed and told myself, okay, if i score the first, the floodgates will open. true enough, i equalised and even got the lead just before half time. 2-1. eventually, i went on to win the game 6-3.
2nd leg : my opponent this time, produced a much convincing display
for himself, leading me 3-1 at half time. had he scored, he would have
won me 4-1 and won me by away goals. of cos, i defended desperately.
i knew luck was on my side when i scored late in the game to make it 2-3
and pull a goal back in the aggregate
score. soon after, i made it 3-3,
and put the icing on the cake in the
last min of the game, when i was
rewarded a penalty for a nudge when
i tried to turn. slotted the ball neatly.
1-3 down, came back to win 4-3, and
10-6 on aggregate.

last 8 match :
vs : singapore seed 1 - extreme a.k.a phirkan.
he was the wcg 2008 champion and gave up his wcg slot to be there.
extreme had more than 15 supporters
at the scene. mine was lesser, but i had
around 10. i saw how his fans/friends
shouted each goal he scored in his last
16 game and spurred him on for every attack..
one of the marshalls kicked us off,
three other marshalls came to watch as well, including the community manager, and the gamemasters.
i felt very pressurised to go against sg's no 1 .. but i tried my best.
i fell to a careless mistake, 0-1 and the crowd cheered for him. it became 0-2 soon after, as it was a forced error by me. i never gave up, and captilised on extreme's errors but lost the game 3-4. how close was the game, i thought. i thought i had a chance.
however, in the second leg, i lost my
focus and was brutally crushed. 4-0 the full time score.

congrats extreme, for he eventually
went on to win the finals..

rather than being disappointed, i
have taken this valuble experience
and will be back stronger for
one asia ( i think im ineligible ) .
hmm, till then, next battle, here i come.

2009-07-19T17:47:00.006+08:00

Yoyoyo,I'm back.I hacked into mr.y's blog once more since he's not in sg again,muhaha.When can we watch movie again,mr yeap?Ohya,look forward to 2nd Oct! :D(Hint:something i owed you long time ago.Hmm,not really long,months ago?) Alright,off to continue with my english Aa.So good of me to actually made this effort to help him post,love me more ah mr.y?Hoho.
SAYOOO!

Love ya,xoxo<3

2009-07-15T21:34:00.003+08:00

check this out ! it is quoted from website iahgames.com/fifaonline2.

[10 Jul 2009]

Meet the top 16 of the Hyundai Motor Cup!

2009-07-13T17:32:00.002+08:00

i tried to spend only $2 today and apparently, it seems possible.
i spent only $2.30 today. not that i am out of cash, but it seems
to be able to help me on .
- weight loss as well.

angry ? sad ? anything .

2009-07-12T18:15:00.001+08:00

Dear's currently in Malaysia.So,his very very very good honey came here to keep his blog alive! :D
As you can see,his blog has always been talking about fifa.He's now busy preparing for the coming tournament on sat.And,his very kind and sweet gf didnt even complain about him not spending time with me.(Okay,less than 5 times.) Alright,i will stop here,if not the owner of this blog might say im bhb again :/

Love you!<333!

2009-07-07T18:23:00.001+08:00

words cannot express the disappointment in me .
as a 'brother' , i deserved more .

2009-07-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

happy 21st month honey !
( this i will never forget )
although its come abit late,
it's better late than never.

enjoyed the movie we watched today.
i apologise for not being able to accompany
you more today because i am really down
with a bad bad bad flu.
its causing me to sneeze every few seconds.
ahh! i better go and have some rest now!
am running a fever. ):

2009-06-29T22:21:00.001+08:00

Here are the fixtures for the HMC SG Finals:

Players will be using the same preset teams as allocated to them during the group stages :

BlitzRooney - Juventus
Ronnywilkinson - Valencia
RoarEX - FC Porto
mal - Hamburg SV
ZzSleepzZ - Barcelona
Demoman - AS Roma
ZendenZ - Athletico Madrid
Impressive - Liverpool
Xtreme - Inter Milan
key - FC Basel
zAkizAki - Marseille
buzzout - Fenerbache
zarates - Sevilla
jokerlator - AC Milan
Zlenn - Lyon
luvselina - Ajax

2009-06-28T12:54:00.001+08:00

SG Finals @ e2Max Cineleisure

• Date: 18 July 2009 (Sat)
• Venue: e2Max Cineleisure
• Players will use pre-made teams
• Single-elimination
• Each stage will have 2 legs (Home/Away), with the exception of 3rd placed match and Finals
• Winner will represent Singapore in the Hyundai Motors Tournament in Busan, Korea

Blitzrooney vs RonnyWikinson
RoarEx vs Mal
zzsleepzz vs Demoman
zendenz vs impressive

xtreme vs key
zAki vs buzzout
zarates vs jokerlator
zlenn vs luvselina.

2009-06-28T11:24:00.001+08:00

am sleepy....

2009-06-28T01:27:00.002+08:00

joshua is a happy man today!
for he made past his group stages and reached
the last 16 of the hyundai cup finals which will
take place 3 weeks later.
joshua topped his group by winning his opening
game 6-3 ( 3-0 lead inside 14mins )
drawing 3-3 ( 3-0 at half time D: )
and a walkover of 3-0 ( because some guy didnt attend ) .

i am drawn with buzzout , and i would expect him
to fight for the last 8 spot with me.
should i qualify, i would face key/extreme.
although i hope key will win, extreme is hot favourite
as he is the eswc runner up, and wcg player. !!!

but if i win extreme and reach the last four, it will be
easier in the semi-finals ! ( why wasnt i drawn in the
other branch ): )
the question is... IF .

school is starting on monday and i will have lesser time
to train. ahhh. D:
i know i can prove my worth by causing an upset should
i manage to grind a result against extreme.
IF.

and, i love cheryl ng li jia honey ! :D
( she told me to put this at the end , so bhb! )

2009-06-25T16:49:00.001+08:00

walao i am angry!
i just lost 2million LP in game .
worth around 100 sing.
GRATS LA.
my enhancements failed ~~~
GG-ED.

2009-06-23T14:57:00.005+08:00

blogging as requested :D

staying at home the whole day makes joshua yeap
nothing but a dull person today!
the weather is so hot, and i am feeling the heat wave.
kudos to those who are in the air-conditional rooms.

there will be a tournament at e2max on saturday
orchard cineleisure L-9 and i doubt i will make past
the group stages upon seeing the draw.
(even though i am in 2nd seed, i was handed a tough draw)
D:

alot of things happened recently, and, yah...
things still move on.

and i have to cut my hair soon.
ahh..
extend the holidays someone?
or , dun catch my hair please ?

2009-06-12T22:53:00.001+08:00

YOUR AGE BY CHOCOLATE MATH

This is pretty neat.

DON'T CHEAT BY SCROLLING DOWN FIRST!

It takes less than a minute.

Work this out as you read.

Be sure you don't read the bottom until you've worked it out!

This is not one of those waste of time things, it's fun.

1. First of all, pick the number of times a week that you would like to have chocolate (more than once but less than 10)

2. Multiply this number by 2 (just to be bold)

3. Add 5

4. Multiply it by 50 -- I'll wait while you get the calculator

5. If you have already had your birthday this year add 1759 ..If you haven't , add 1758.

6. Now subtract the four digit year that you were born.

You should have a three digit number

The first digit of this was your original number (i.e., how many times you want to have chocolate each week).

The next two numbers are

YOUR AGE! (Oh YES, it is!!!!!)

THIS IS THE ONLY YEAR (2009) IT WILL EVER WORK

__________________

2009-06-12T20:30:00.002+08:00

barely a week after i celebrated my birthday in style.
( arguably the best in the chong boon days )

i was caught irritated today by some 4 fucking indian
girls in the bus.
i spotted my seat, and took it.
and the indian girls were so like oblivious to their
surroundings, one of them seated beside me
was talking on the phone so loud and please damn her
for heaven sake , i could hear her saying 'hello' for
almost 10 times at only 4 bus stops.
of cos i was damn pissed off.
talking to the same person do you need to hello
10 times? and the person in front of me was like,
'' he's coming ah? ill kill you. let me talk to him '' .

i am a commuter. i reserve all the rights to have
a peaceful trip home. and yet this bitches are spoiling
my trip and the fare i paid for.
for heaven's sake this is so damn irritating.

stop saying fifa fifa when i am really fuming mad.
i already told you i am on the way home.
there are words people dun like to hear.
when i say just leave me alone, i mean it.

2009-06-10T20:57:00.000+08:00

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2009-06-05T20:36:00.002+08:00

today. really happy. pre build-up to my birthday tomorrow. :D

today attended school lessons in the morning, as usual , late. lol.

then after that finished, skipped dnt cos teacher not there. and then
kasthuri and vincent told me that i have to stay until 1pm, for some
surprise. and what a surprise it was yea?
they bought me a cake, coke. :D very sweet of you guys.
birthday song, made my wish, blew out the candles. it's been 7years
since i last had to blow the candles. D:
dear, miss ma, vincent, kasthuri and ananada were there.
im really really touched. :D
had my cake.

went with dear to mac, she joined the netballers :D muahaha.
i left then met my aunt.. i was late.
went to sumo house, the food there really sucks now.
i can assure you to that because i went there for the past 2 sats.
NO STANDARD AT ALL.
ate really full. aunt gave me $50 for present...

went to NTUC to buy myself muslim bars. my aunt kept asking
me what i want for my birthday but everywhere we went to,
i did not want to buy, because of a catch phrase : ' too expensive ' .
seriously, i think people nowdays do not know how to save their
money. and think that money is so damn fucking easy to earn that
they do not bother about how much money they are limited to.

aunt dragged me to coffee bean to have the rapsberry cheesecake.
and wow. how heavenly it sure was. it looked small.
as i ate and ate, towards the end, i had a sickening feeling, as if i
was about to throw up, because i ate too much. haha
it was around 5.30 that time, and aunt said she had to go.
off we went. :D goodbye !

bought fifa online 2 cash, 10$ for 9k .. opened cards.
spammed. and i got nothing good. what a birthday present D:

tomrorrow. :D
joshua yeap's birthday. :D
it's going to be a very good day ahead tomorrow because
fifa online guys are playing soccer together in the morning,
8.30am at hougang ( i am sure i can wake up , i usually sleep
at 1+ and wake up at 7 ) .
i have always seen soccer matches, ' birthday boy ' scores
the winner or 'birthday boy' saves the day, and i have the
chance to do it myself personally tomorrow.
if i could bag the winning goal. :D

after that fifa online 2 tournament , at PC Bunk.
last 8 gets 1mil LP and winner gets additional 500 grand,
and the 8 will join already qualified blitzrooney and extreme
into the last 32 of the singapore finals, which the winner of
the last 32 will represent singapore in a prestigious event
in korea, fifa online 2 tournament..
single elimination format. 3mins per half.
i have to buck up now. i suck in defending LOL..

i hope dear can go with me tomorrow, give me moral support
when i am goal(s) down.. :D

good luck to my day ahead tomorrow. joshua yeap , it's your
day, enjoy it while it lasts!

lastly, thanks to those who wished me early happy b'dae today.
my grandmother, 2nd 3rd 4th 5th aunts, grandmother, dear,
miss ma, kasthuri, vincent , ting zhi , claudia , ananda although
i am sure they will do it again tomorrow. :D

june is always the best. :D
every birthday may not be the same but i sure love 2009.

2009-06-04T07:58:00.001+08:00

whatever.. i cant be bothered.

2009-05-23T08:37:00.000+08:00

green house useless la..
andrew out for 1week..
green house useless la.

2009-05-20T20:11:00.000+08:00

every year i stare at the inter house soccer sheet and every
year i think to myself, is this going to be the year?
NO.
i only can dream of winning it , and i cant win it.
my team is too , how to say. lol.
and there is no sheer class in my house.
other houses can afford to slacken and leave their
star players on the bench while mine has to go all out
every game with no rest..........
this year will not be the same.
ill become a vegeterian if i win it this year.

2009-05-16T11:15:00.001+08:00

mark my words,
united will win arsenal tonight at all costs.

2009-05-08T23:12:00.001+08:00

forced to malaysia for next 2days.
will miss you darling.
love you forever.

2009-05-04T10:34:00.001+08:00

TRUST and obey. for there's no other way.

2009-05-02T11:50:00.002+08:00

19th month .
long long ago ...........
until today ....
tomorrow.....
the day after....
my love for you will be the same....
all may change, but not my love for you.

love, me.

2009-05-01T16:45:00.003+08:00

why come up with stories that you are inocent?
does it mean that when one cries, they will be believed?
or was it to gain sympathy?
as far as im concerned.. i know you too well.
you will never let your grandma know about such things.
not even the previous one...
i have heard that you were not even allowed to keep a
fish as a pet, and was shouted at..
which made me feel that you did not tell your grandma
at all..

if you think twisting the story will not bug you in time
to come, then go ahead..

i am telling the truth.
i have nothing to fear.
i am not sure who bought your story..
but after all, to me,
it is a bitter way to know that i am right all along.

2009-04-29T20:19:00.001+08:00

idiots....... morons.........................

today. sick. lol.
fifa online 2. so fun meh. zzz.

2009-04-19T17:22:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to watch another movie with darling.
fast and furious 4.. lol.. we could fall asleep in the cinema.

chelsea won arsenal 2-1 ..
lol slept at 2am
woke up at 8.50, went to tuition,
then only came back at 1.30 i think..
played fifa online world tour.
lost twice in a row. duno what i doing. schoolboy errors.
earned back le..
now on the back of 6 wins in a row, stopped playing.
yesterday night i had 15 wins in a row. :D

homeworks.. not done. D:
lol.............. CE project, not done. lolssssssss

love darling <3

2009-04-12T11:39:00.002+08:00

its Federico Marcheda again.
the 17year old manunited's italian forward
found the net again with a sublime touch that
sent manunited back to the top of the barclays
premier league, and 3 points closer to a third
successive league title.
the latter was in the way of carrick's shot
and deflected the ball into the bottom corner
of the net. so lucky, dude.
this is the 2nd time he has scored the winning
goal in 2 matches, and that was worth 4 points.
( 2 points dropped for a draw )
last week, he scored a last-ditch stunning goal
with a long range shot. this time, he scored
again and he is 17 !
wonder boy wonder boy....

now, we can look forward to an exciting finish
to the premier league.
dun forget manunited are still in contention for
all the 5 major titles this season.
not to forget, they have already won the
carling cup, and the club world cup.
to add on, they have a point lead over liverpool
at the top of the table with a game in hand.
FA cup semi-final clash against Everton.
the other fixture is Chelsea v Arsenal.
last but not least, porto in the champions' league
q-finals. although they drew the first leg at home
2-2, which gives their opponents the better chance
of going through to the next round, i believe they
will grind out a result there, which no british
team ever won there.
i would like manu to be the first, first for everything.

2009-04-11T22:15:00.002+08:00

today tournament fifa online 2 at virtualand, bugis.
i really could not adapt to the screen there.
laptop kind flat ones....
i scraped through 4-3 in the first round,
before succumbing 4-5 to one of the best players,
monkiekig in the last 64.
i played my best and even scared a wonderful
goal at the end, but it was not enough..
i looked at the fixtures and was disheartened.
there were many not so good players who i beat
went through to the last 32, but i did not.
i looked again, had i won monkiekig,
i would have at least made into the last 4.
it is saddening.

2009-04-03T19:03:00.000+08:00

the one at home is always irritating as she always think she's big.
today, pacer test. argh.. did badly...
played soccer after school in canteen. who saw me ran past 6 people
with the ball? i eventually knocked into the wall. lol...
watched movie with darling, kevan and hui min after school..
walked walked after that with minfeng, xiaohan and vivien...
then home..
ill be starting work soon... ahhh.. i want earn money.
buy darling things, buy new handphone.
the world is all about money !

2009-03-31T19:20:00.003+08:00

i felt an indescribable pain as i said those words.
it would be best as nothing can be done to change
the bad habits, for both you and i.
if there was a remedy for it, it would have been
done long ago. until now, i still can remember
when were the times i was unhappy.
thank you, and sorry.

2009-03-26T19:09:00.001+08:00

how come i do not have the heart to blog anymore? haix..
studies are worrying me...
tomorrow is kai hua and my HOM sharing.
im afraid. D:

2009-03-20T16:59:00.002+08:00

yes. im back in singapore. after a long stay there.
okay, my mood was dashed today by some bitch
in my house. no word of apology when she fumbled
the fizzling hot gravy on my shirt. i was like f.
i have only worn it for 10minutes, after changing from
my long sleeve shirt. i really slept in the plane for
1hr 40mins at least, and back slept again at JB home..
on the way back slept again. i must be really tired,
as i turned in at only 5.15am this morning, woke up
at 7am as my flight was at 9.55am.
when i came back today, i asked her if the internet
portal was working already, because my port always
has problems connecting at times, and she shouted
what port what port! as if i owed her a million bucks.
i hate her because of her this fking attitude, which
really sucks to the core. f.
SABAH is a boring place. the hotel is like so damn
budget one, but the transport really ex.
from airport to hotel 40, today back to airport 70.
tour for 2 days adding up to 800 odd.
i visited KK, and the highest mountain in south-east
asia, mount kinabalu, which is 4095.2m tall.
i was only at 19xx m then i thought ok, im not going
further up anymore.
visited the hot springs, but it rained.
shop shop shop.
went internet cafe, but u know what? their portal
broke down. zz.
went back to gamble. lost 7++ . lol.
i did not have any luck AT ALL.
last day there.
woke up early in the morning.
visited i duno what, longhouse.
got 5 houses of different tribes.
the last one was really scary, they held knives
while spot checking us to see if we were carrying
anything and would shoot us with blowpipes if
we laughed as they were half naked only with
a short pants covering the fleshy parts of their
back. i could not even laugh. the knive was so
sharp. i was later told that they had to act like
this as they wanted people to know what it was
like in the past.
shopping. boring. did not buy anything.
night. internet still not working. holy cow!
gambled in the end. i reshuffled the cards,
as in packed everything as if it was new.
and yes, i recouped my losses, and won
about 4 ++ RM in a 2hour odd game.
cracked jokes. played 2.5 LOL
still learning but i won a few hands . haha.
enough said.

now. tired, but using my computer. lol..
most importantly, i missed darling super lots and lots
and lots. i only had 2 chances to call back to singapore.
and i sure made full use of it..
i was thinking of buying handicraft for darling,
but i did not in the end, as i did not shop that much,
and the things there were really ugly (pardon me).
handicraft also not nice, so i did not buy anything.
minitoons there is 3 times more expensive then
in singapore. HOLY COW ! if not i would have bought
the biggest toy.. if it was cheaper. lol ....
love, darling .

2009-03-17T16:36:00.000+08:00

im at a lan nearby my budget hotel !!
what the fuck!! the room so cramped!!
i miss darling ~ u were not online..
im left with 155 secs...
i love you honey..
remember to message me..
i miss you..
i couldnt call u as my mom dun wanna lend
me her phone.
i saw a very nice beanie and i wanted to buy D:
will miss you darling..
ill come back on friday evening's flight.
once i reach sg, i will call you.
i might come online in the morning on friday.
tomorrow and thursday going touring
and sight seeing.
you must be at netball now right?
remember to rest early tonight.
love u. muackx x333.

2009-03-16T19:20:00.001+08:00

today went to school study..
was walking back. then dear stood behind the wall and tried
to scare me. i wasnt shocked. so she said, must pretend lah.
okay, so i said, do it again. so she did it again. i screamed.
lol. we both laughed. so lame right..

im going for tuition now~~
will be in sabah from tomorrow to friday or saturday.
but i will be spending my night in malaysia as my flight
is at 7am at Senai Airport.
will miss dear :D love you muackx x33333333.
dun forget to msg me :D