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Friday, February 29, 2008
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seriously , 5months just went down the drain like this .
come to think of it , childish . things have come this way ,
and i think it will end this way .
high hopes leads to disappointment after pinning on them .
i swear that if you pin too much hopes and you fail , the
pain you withstand is going to be unbearable .
been there , experienced that .
its been almost 5months , and yes , we shared many things together .
its time that those moments of ours end . perhaps you do not like my
attitude in work , i dun know . but , i do not like last minute changes ,
promises broken . you promised me you would change just a few days
back , did you ? i know art is part of your AA . but telling me at the last
minute , really , i dun appreciate it .
yes , i admit i still love you . but if we are like this everyday , you go with
your friends , you have something on , im the one who is getting hurt ,
because you have no time for me at all . really , no point on being
together . it is not because you have no time for me and i wan to break
up with you . it is the principal of keeping promises . if you cannot keep
promises , then how can i trust myself to be with you ? just like if i
always go about without caring for you , or without showing any concern
for you , am i even fit to be your boyfriend in the first place ? trust
is the factor to a relationship . yes , i know you have trust in me , and yes ,
i do have trust in you as well . but all these , are just childish and uncalled
for . why would you want someone who always put the relationship on the
line ? im sure you wont because i wont as well . i know the feeling of being
hurt , but thats that . im not angry with your broken promises . im just
angry with myself . if i say that i dun love you , thats bullshit .
the bible says , jehovah sent his one and only begotten son to earth to
wash away all sins of mankind , so that whoever believes in him shall not
perish , but have eternal life . why did god choose his son jesus of all his sons ?
there was many other angels who can fit the bill , so why did he chooese
jesus , his most precious son ? Jehovah wanted everyone to know that by
sending his most begotten son to die on the cross for everyone in the world ,
it shows that he loves the people on earth , not that he dislikes his son .
ask around . which parent would sacrifice their most precious son to die
for others ? i would certainly be against it .
yes , i am angry with myself . the reason for breaking up ( temporarily
part ) is not because i am angry with you . i am just angry with myself .
and what can i do ? breaking up with you shows that i really love you alot .
why would i put someone i love most , for the sake of joking ? i really
love you . punishing myself by breaking up with you to cause me pain , hurt ,
perhaps , is the way that can help me to move on , to change , and not be
angry with myself . breaking up with you dosent show that i hate you nor
dislike your broken promises . that is nothing compared to how much i really
love you . i know everything has come to this stage where the mutual trust
with one another has already been broken . it takes time to heal . perhaps ,
giving each other some time will be the most ideal way . let us both cool down ,
and see what we can do to make amendments . i will take the consideration
with seriousness and come to my senses . meanwhile , sorry if i hurt you .
those smses . i feel hurt myself too . perhaps you think that hurting myself
because i love you is stupid , but thats what i am . stupid . if you want to call me
that . whats done is already done . it can be regretted but cannot be changed .
making amendments would be fine .
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Tuesday, February 26, 2008
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lazy to blog =.=
just to update you guys on what's sold .
1. pokeyourkuku ( lv 50 spearman) sold at 70m mesos .
2. mesos sold quite alot , left with 113m but there is an
offer of 1.2/m buying all my mesos . offers higher than
that can contact me thru' msn or my hp number .
3. zakum service . i do sell , but not cheap . level and job
are the key factors of zakum service .
whats left to sell ?
1. lv 60 hunter helmed ( 15 15 16 15 ) < helm status .
base str 49 only . skills all correct . nothing wrong .
full pin full asiasoft . looking for 100-120$ sgd . quite
cheap already . anyone interested can contact me .
please help spread around to friends that might be
interested in my account . thanks .
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Sunday, February 24, 2008
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Birmingham City 2-2 Arsenal
Newcastle 1-5 Manchester United.
well done boys .
today went out to sell mesos . collect hundreds.
but gamble in arcade. i wanted to catch the winnie
toy for darling but cant after numberous attempts.
i think i lost 8$ . =( went back home gamble blackjack.
winning 6dollars at first. then duno why become so suay
lost 12dollars in the end. lost money AGAIN. =(
lesson learnt le ba. never gamble big again.
i love you darling. i miss you alot. <3.
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Saturday, February 23, 2008
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quitting maple sales .
S> mesos at $1.3 per million .
also selling , lv 60 helmed archer ( 15 15 16 15 )
and lv 50 helmed spearman ( 16 1 5 15 1 5 )
leave offers here or contact me at 81315843 .
help spread . thanks !
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Tuesday, February 19, 2008
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blogging is boring. zzz .
my leg injured liao ! play with the sec 1 then perhaps i
was too good for them la, =x , thats why they bring me
down to the ground . lols ! hhaiis . very pain leh .
nvm sua . i qualified saudi arabia national , thats why
they need to bring me down . sua .
Liverpool v Inter Milan sia . i swear that i dun know
the score. but i predict a Liverpool 2-1 win at enfield.
elsewhere , Roma play Real Madrid at Rome, 1-1 the
score.
now, this is the cracker . Olympiakos v Chelsea .
it is not about what the scoreline will be . it is about
how many goals Chelsea will put in . i hope their
luck will run out . Final score ?
Olympiakos 2-1 Chelski .
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Saturday, February 16, 2008
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i swear that Manchester United will win tonight .
regardless of the score .
yesterday went out with darling and some people go watch
movie at hub. it was first time see darling so happy wor.
maybe must go see movies more often le la !
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Thursday, February 14, 2008
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i wish all a happy valentines' day .
hope that you all had a great time .
well , i did not . =(
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Wednesday, February 13, 2008
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Let me remind you how people fall in love. I only know the old-fashioned
way. First, we are attracted to something we value. We usually show
appreciation for things we value. With the mutual exchange and sharing
of all things nice, interest and excitement between two people grows.
Being generous with compliments and saying loving things to each other
creates bonding. Naturally, this pleasure leads to intimacy, and finally,
estacy.
Good lovers support each other's passions. What makes us passionate
about each other us is our passion for life itself. Our passion for life
makes us creative, spontaneous, alive. Without passion, we feel empty,
bored, numb, and burnt-out. So how can we feel refreshed when everyday
is the same? Special occasions are just the thing to keep the novelty of
love alive!
When will we understand that we only achieve freedom when we accept
ourself, own ourself, value and discover ourself? Freedom comes when
our choices are restored to us, when we can reject everything that
violates, imprisons and diminishes us.
I wish you love this Valentine's. Let you love this Valentine's be the
confident kind, the courageous kind, the kind that raises you up
and leaves you free.
<3 darling.
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Tuesday, February 12, 2008
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hold me in your arms , and never let me go .
i want to spend eternity with you .
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Monday, February 11, 2008
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Day 1 in ipoh -
finally reached ipoh after a gruelling long travel to ipoh from
singapore after travelling over 500 miles. it was night when
we reached there. i was tired and slept early. nothing much.
Day 2 in ipoh -
i went to cut my hair. it turned out to be longer O_O
but gambling got alot of luck. i won alot on the first day, xDD
had supper. fill myself siaks.
Day 3 in ipoh -
sipeh hot la. 40degrees celcius. bathing in cold water was so
song la. gambled also. win again. xDD.
Day 4 in ipoh -
so uncle ang, ricardo, kim and their wives and children
came to ipoh for holiday. wow. all gamblers. surely i have
enjoyed myself. lol. we met another uncle for supper near
his house. he then gave ang pao. O_O checked into hotel
in ipoh.
Day 5 in ipoh -
visted the cave in ipoh. they looked like.. er. wtf. if you were
there, you would have opted not to go. it was going like round
and roung for 150metres from ground to the top. it featured
shapes of the rocks like osama bin laden and monalissa with
her pregnant stomach and an ambulance with a man 'stand by'
lol. it was hot. 38 degrees. went to another uncle's house in ipoh
for awhile. gambled again. win lo. O_O night makan hor fan till
1am. so steady.
Day 6 in ipoh -
travelling back to singapore. started at 11am and stopped for
lunch and tea break. the shalala coffee produces great tea. omg.
there was a big jam towards johor bahru and the opposite
direction at scale 267.7 km as there had been an earlier accident.
the bus was in the drain sia. so cool la. too bad no pic. sad.
traffic was slow.
then.... MY FATHER WANT ME TO CUT MY HAIR. i cut le
he said still too long. so went to barber. what the fucking bugger
sia is indian de. then cut for me le. IF YOU SEE MY HAIR NOW,
please dun suan me. i know very fucking. zzz... suay lor. what
the fuck la. im now anti-indian for at least 1month, period.
Monday -
ManchesterUnited 1-2 Manchester City (wtf, lose at home.)
Chelsea 0-0 Liverpool (GG)
gambled in school la. blackjack. 21 is double rite. ><
the banker said 21 is 1time of betting amount only. sadded.
if is x2 then i wont have lost 4dollars. rahrah. new year never
mind lor. hahas.
now eating chewing gum at com lab. O_O .
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Wednesday, February 6, 2008
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yo people. im currently in ipoh now. dun ask how i got internet
access . simple . there is lan shop charging at 2.50 rm per hour.
i cant always come . but the weather here is hot . 36 degrees
celcius. i can die man . so hot sia .
darling i miss you alot . i cant pick up your phone calls but i can
read ur smses . try to message me . so that i can see your
sweet smses . xD .
i willing be going back to singapore on sunday .
darling i miss u alot . love you so much . muacks . <3333333
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Tuesday, February 5, 2008
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guys . i will be MIA from today to Sunday as im going
back to malaysia for chinese new year . take care guys.
wishing you guys a memorable happy chinese new year
in advance =)
i love you darling . dun miss me too much . <3
When years are passing by like days,
and in my hand your hand is placed,
a knowing smile crosses your face,
a simple touch can still make my heart race.
When I can see my soul in your eyes,
and you see your soul in mine we realize,
that a love so deep can harbor no lies,
where our only tears shed were happy tears we've cried.
I love you as much now as I ever did before,
if possible, I may even love you more,
all starting from a feeling we did not ignore,
a feeling of connection we chose to explore.
I don't know what it is that you saw in me,
what I saw in you was the utmost happiness
that can ever be,
even more so on the day when you and I
became "We",
I can still smile and say with love and
truth Honey, I love you...
you are in my arms, and all the world is calm.
the music playing only for two, so close together.
and when i am with you, so close to feeling alive.
and that forever i know, that i wanted to hold you so close.
almost believing that it was not pretence,
so close to reaching that famous end.
i love you darling. <3
<3 02/10/2007.
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Saturday, February 2, 2008
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happy 4th month anniversary to darling.
4months ago, i was nothing until u came into my life.
4months ago, i was bad until u came into my life.
4months ago, i was not anything good until u came into my life.
thank you darling. <3 .
4months later.. i am what i am now today because of you.
4months later.. i realised i loved you more and more.
4months later.. i promise that i will never leave you, EVER.
what i am now today, is the support of my darling to my
success of what i am today. without her, i would not be
what i am today. i promise that i will never leave you alone.
as years come by, we will remain as one. our hearts beat as one.
that is my greatest promise that i can give to you.
i love you darling. lots and lots. <3 .
JoshuA .
darling please dun let me wait for you so long again. =(
i love you darling. <3. muacks.
